i feel so terribly little.

uh-oh! the Dreaded Day is just around the corner. On Monday, my sister Sindi turns 18. and i am not yet 16. bah... so not cool.

obviously, my sister has always been older than me, so it shouldn't feel like such a big deal. but it does... it does. she is almost finished high school, too - she has less than a month, including finals - and that doesn't really help in the Making-Hannah-Feel-Better-About-Her-Littleness department... especially when i think about the fact that i have another TWO years of slogginess. 

but that's not even the worst part.

in February next year, she'll leave home for good. she'll be off to study at Rhodes University, all of 10 hours drive away, which means i finally get a room all to myself. so i should be happy, right? right. the thing is, i've never not shared a room before. and even though she gets on my nerves sometimes, there's no one i love like my sister. whenever she's away, the room feels lonely and it's just a tiny little bit harder to fall asleep. needless to say, i think i'm going to have a hard time dealing with her leaving. i really will miss my Sinderella.

but onto brighter and better subjects! tomorrow, as a gift for her, we're going down to the closest BIG mall around, Gateway, (it's an hour and a half away, in case you're wondering ;) ) with 4 of her friends. my mom and i have been banned from their exploits once we get there, so we're going to go have fun on our ownsomes. possible activities include watching a movie and buying books! yay :)